Journey to exodus...

If only God had granted me wisdom not to trust my instinct too much. Oh well, guess I was made that way, my instinct tells me so :).

How mighty is the word that sounds in the halls of Man? How mighty is the clergy that defines the meaning of this Word? Who are the people that speak only in terms of this word? Who dares speak against the word? ------------------------------------------------- Devils and angels lost in the midst of struggle, never ceasing to look down upon their charges, Man, who have already destroyed God with their science, their might, their destruction of faith in general. God is dead, all the papers say, and, frankly, that is a good thing. He need not be here to see us destroy ourselves for the sake of a God of war, which God most certainly was not. Devils and angels, breaking horns and tearing wings, nothing is left beneath you, never bothering with us, but your own ordeals are greater, we destroy ourselves as you destroy yourselves. No hope in this useless combat, no use in this hopeless combat, no light at the end of a tunnel. Be ready, oh lords of above and below, for we started with God, and you are sure to follow. Devils and angels, screaming out in torment what has this battle given you? Did you enjoy tearing out the throats of your enemies, smiting them with divine glory and light? Was it good for you, baby? It sure was good for me. You cease in combat and look down at us, horror-stricken faces as you see the weapons of Man, his logic, his science, facing down upon you. Goodbye, devils, goodbye, angels, now you have your leave. Goodnight, sweet earth, and may we rest in peace. ------------------------------------------------------- Years ago, in the land of my father I saw the end come forth, when Man finally pulled the last string, pushed the last button and they were off, flying down down down upon the unsuspecting village, the mute and frightened child. The bombs of now and the bombs of then, detonate, boom boom, and gone in the dust that was once a child is innocence of a people. No hope in life for an afterlife of peace only bliss or pain, young child in the dark place, run screaming, run away, mommy will save you, but she really won't. She's getting high with her pimp, so, sorry, but tonight the badman will come and get you. Oh dark dark place, my closet, my hole, little world beneath us swallows us whole but it's still not enough when the bombs start to drop, it's still not enough when Man kills itself. Gone are the days of innocence, when a sweet young thing is just a sweet young thing and not a whore. When life is good and children are cute and the nights are safe. Gone are days gone by when you could smoke reefer in the streets and still get high. When things were easy and the streets deserted, save for the parade and the specators. What once was is gone again, the past is dead and changed, no world left but this sick, sad shell, broken and beaten, as if raped. Home is where the heart is, placed upon the mantle again, torn from the chest and lain there for some gruesome charm that the home was missing. Wearing the entrails of a fallen foe, or friend, or something or another, this is my home, my sanctity. It protects me from the end of Man, the end of time again, this land that was my father's, but still not yet mine. I watch as the bombs drop, I swelter as the heat takes me, melts me, brings me back to the grave of God. I stand on God's grave, the first time I remember doing so, and I look down upon the headstone. A single tear, it drops from my eye, lands, a flower sprouts. Upon the stone, I read a Word, the Word that is mighty but lost to us, men, who dare not speak it aloud for fear it may be true. This Word of God's Grace, and beauty, and meaning This word is Love, as Man can no longer do. ---------------------------------------------------------- It's not my fault you killed yourself here in the land of hell, stupid little child lay the blame elsewhere. I tried to warn you of the falling of the Word, the death of God, and the Battle of the Ascended. I tried to speak out, and tell you what was real, but alas, stupid child, sweet young thing, you're damned like the rest of us- take it like a man. right now Adding your reply:   Your Reply:

By Foolsworld

Two days without my pills and still going strong :).

Now the dark begins to rise
Save your breath, it's far from over
Leave the lost and dead behind
Now's your chance to run for cover

I don't wanna change the world
I just wanna leave it colder
Light the fuse and burn it up!
Take the path that leads to nowhere

All is lost again
But I'm not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

Fall!

Watch the end through dying eyes
Now the dark is taking over
Show me where forever dies
Take the fall and run to Heaven.

All is lost again
But I'm not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade anekatips.com
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I'm not proud, my cold-blooded fate
I will shut the world away.

I will not bow,
I will not break,
I will shut the world away,
I will not fall,
I will not fade,
I will take your breath away.

And I'll survive; paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I'm not proud, my cold-blooded fate
I will shut the world away.

" A band of eagles fears no foe" - Comte Anatole de Perignac

"The Prince must be a lion but he must also know how to play the fox"- Niccolo Machiavelli

"Its not where we come from, but where we are goin." - John Dillinger

I feel the wind brush across my face
Like an invisible wave crashing over me
I started holding my breath the moment I left
Wondering what the day was going to bring for me

But there's no way that I could every prepare
For the scope of it all, for the chill in the air
The cold of the rain, the warmth of the day
I'm never gonna be the same

The whole world's racing by
And no words can describe how this feels inside
You need to be here, you need to be here with me
They come and go so fast, these moments never last
So you need to be here, you need to be here with me

It's something new and beyond every corner is a mystery
'Cause every road that I've taken
Can never be mistaken for the one that now is under my feet
And I realize with open eyes
Every second that we have is once in a lifetime, once in a lifetime

The whole world's racing by
And no words can describe how this feels inside
You need to be here, you need to be here with me
They come and go so fast, these moments never last
So you need to be here, you need to be here with me

'Cause something's incomplete, not quite how it should be
And I try and I try just to live in the moment
But everything I do just leads me back to you
'Cause there is no substitute

The whole world's racing by
And no words can describe how this feels inside
You need to be here, you need to be here with me
They come and go so fast, these moments never last
You need to be here, you need to be here with me

Okay I still have 2 hours left so what the heck eh? Anyway it applies to everyday!


Birds flying high...
You know how I feel!
Sun in the sky...
You know how I feel!
Breeze driftin' on by...
You know how I feel...
It's a new dawn...
It's a new day...
It's a new life..
For me...
And I'm feeling GOOD!

Fish in the sea,
You know how I FEEL!
River running FREE!!
You know how I FEEL!
Blossom on a tree,
YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL!
It's a NEW dawn
It's a new DAY
It's a new LIFE!!
For meeeee...
And I'm feeling GOOD!!

Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don't you know?
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what I mean.
Sleep in peace when day is done,
That's what I mean!
And this old world is a new world!
And a BOLD world
For me...

Stars when you shine,
You know how I FEEL!
Scent of the pine,
You know how I FEEL!
Oh freedom is MINE!
AND I KNOW HOW I FEEEL!
It's a new dawn... It's a new day...It's a new life,
It's a new dawn... It's a new day...It's a new life,
IT'S A NEW DAWN... IT'S A NEW DAY... ITS A NEW LIFE!!

FOR ME!!!

And I'm FEELING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD...

Perservence... GAHHH 4 MORE MONTHS! After that, its a new BIKE, AIKIDO lessons, getting a JOB, endless gaming: RUNESCAPE, ASSASSINS CREED 2 AND PROTOTYPE. 2 MONTHS IS NOT ENOUGH.

Quite sad that MJ passed away, regret not buying his 25th aniversary album, now its out of stock!! Anyway heres a video I saw when I WAS 4/5 on TV about MJ its good, I wish I could move like him. I won't listen to Madonna if she passes away.

I just hope my DSA goes through, its either TJC or ACJC of me. Oh well 4 months of suffering, and I won't be attending BASIC regularly anymore... Pray that I will continue to walk with the Lord and serve him as always :). I will continue to pray for you guys as well, don't worry, I still come on Sundays.

Through this holidays, I have learnt a lot, especially on self-discipline :). I'm going to apply it now, pray that the Lord will grant me wisdom and strength man! NO COMPUTER FOR 4 MONTHS!

Recently I read this book on living right for God. So I'm going to share abit of it with you. We all don't know what happens after death, simply because no one has come back from the dead to tell us right? WELL what do you know, Jesus came back from the dead, he has conquered death and he has told us what happens after death, so we can be sure that he will be with us after we die. ISN'T that encouraging?

Yeah, so even if your suffering in any small way, just remember, at the end, all this suffering is worth it!

"I will try... And even if I die trying, I will smile 'cause I did what I could"

I guess I'm only good at listening, I don't know how patient or ignorant I can be sometimes, I'm just standing there while the world is revolving around its axis, leaving me standing all alone on the same spot.

I don't know if I'm a nice person, but I try to be nice. Some times its hard just to care about someone or something, when they don't notice what you are doing at all. Sometimes when your nice, people think otherwise, they are skeptical, they think that your acting like this because you are forced to, or you want a favor in return. I don't know about that, if that was so, its time for me to ask for all those favors back.

They say respect others and they will respect you, let me tell you, I don't see this happening at all, the world is just scum, I couldn't careless if it burned to the ground. Some people are just biased, people look at looks, money and all sorts of pleasures, they don't judge you on how much you have done, they judge you on how you do stuff. Another problem with the world is stereotyping, why do you group people together just because they have different beliefs or act differently? Sorry but you have no right to say someone is inferior compared to you.

I have been listening, listening to what the world has to offer, what it has to say and I tell you, my ears hurt. Sometimes I can't have a good christian talk with someone, sometimes its just once a week, but I'm happy that I can pray for someone else, christianity ain't a religion, its a relationship. Maybe as christians we forget about each other, we concentrate on our own struggle, how about asking about others? Its not a one man show.

The harvest is ready, it needs its workers, maybe we should not only reach out to others, but encourage each other? Its useless if you accomplish something alone and yet you can't share the joy with someone else, trust me I have been through that so often.

"God doesn't wait for us to be ready. Sometimes he jsut throws us in. Its not a real hard thing, talking to other people about Jesus. You don't have to take a class; you don't have to read a book; you don't have to memorize an outline. All you really have to do is tell them what he did for you. That's the best testimony there is."